what a day...........kind of whacky....###

fuckin hectic day......but ended up quite cool....not fucked....

oh boy...another wonderful day.....it all began with a lot of confusion....i was quite myself today and thats what my friend Arul discovered.......hats off to u dude....makes me feel a lot better than some one under the sky knows me well................finally all that boredom and confusion is dead......it was a matter of time....just had to make a decision.....and i wish i cud share what was runnin on my back.....i jsut squashed that thought and slammed it into a virtual dustbin.....

i just finished reading a book by name...."Modern youth and chastity ...by Gerald Kelly...".....and then was lost in thoughts of why did i have a un-successful relationship....and this is what i derived....

when i had known the girl for long time. especially when i was associated with her intimately, i begain to notice that small defects that one may not have perceived at the beginning ; sometimes cos of changing moods, these defects "Begin to get on the nerves of anyone" (may be her or me). these moments can be fatal(thats what happened) to the relationship unless one of us resolutely crushed the inclination to concentrate on each other and get things workin. I think the loyalty necessary for such relationship demands such things to be banished.............well i am not sure to what extent i think its rt.....but i think this was partially the reason that i broke up.......i have been thinkin to some extent now a days....i kind of like it.....but no serious thoughts on this side..........

...........there is nothin much that i have put for all my friends around the city...this is what i think shud make them happy and remain motivated............"Smoking under proper conditions is quite harmless.....but it might be very dangerous in an oil refinery..." so happy smokin dudes.........ha ha

this day suked like carzy.....i was so stuck with the though of getting a job offer from malaysia...and i was so tempeted to go there and start my independent life as soon as possible..........but then i gave it a thought.....since i do a pretty good job.....why shud i have a life which is below poverty line.,......so next time he offers me i am gonna demand a hefty amount of money........make more sense to me....any thoughts ???

......then it was a relaxin round of nice beer,.......for the ppl who knw sadanand vishwanath..........he is become one of my close pals.....cos last time i met him, we had spoken abt The Alchemist.....and he was tellin me abt his life ....in refrence to that book......but there was some thing that put me back in to some trouble was....when i was leavin, he made a statement............"go get a nice women in life and always be happy..."....being happy was fine...women is what i did not get ....?? am i goin with a look of wantin a women in my life........I NEED A JOB..........not a women......

finally i ended my day readin this nice book....not all that great but then it was nice to knw some things that i did not.............and this is what i found tough to digest in the book......how can one live such a life.....

here are the priciples.......

1. " Every direct venereal action is against the law of god, and is a serious sin of impurity"
2. " Any action is a serious sin against chastity when it is performed with the intention of stimulating or promoting venereal pleasure".......OH BOY!!!!
3. " It is a mortal sin for one to expose oneself freely and knowingly to the proximate danger of performing a directly venereal action or of consenting to venereal pleasure"
4. " It is a venial sin to perform an indirectly venereal action without relatively sufficient reasons...."

i cant believe that i read this book ..............how did i manage to digest it.............fuck that.........i did it and it was a good book....

why is that i love this song so much...wearing the inside out....by pink floyd.....i just love this one............its like, "from mornin to night i stayed out of sight.........."....just great.......